I’ve been a bit quiet on the blogging front lately. I’ve been in and around social media daily, especially Instagram which is my favourite of all apps but on the writing front, I’ve not done any. None. Nada. For nearly four weeks! In the blogging world that’s at least 2 centuries, right!?
My reasons? Well I could very easily blame busy daily life. July was super busy for us with lots of social things going on and D had his baptism which took up a lot of my time planning. But in all honesty I’m not sure it was just being busy that made me stop writing. If we are being completely truthful I think I was just bored of the blogging dog eat dog world. I was fed up of writing, promoting and trying endlessly to get my content out there for me to get 2-3 views per day. I was also getting fed up of receiving followers for my Instagram and Twitter only to be unfollowed again the next day. It was like I was taking part in a social media game that I’d not asked to be a player in. It was exhausting. It was infuriating. I became very despondent with the whole thing and a sense of the CBA’s (Can’t be arsed) came into motion. It’s only when my husband pointed out to me the other day that I’d been quiet on my blog that I’d even thought about it.
And then that’s when it hit me! I realised that the reason I started this blog wasn’t to become some internet blogging sensation or an author (although it would be lovely! ha!), I didn’t do it for views or ratings. I did it because I am all too aware that my life and my loves zoom past in an instant and I wanted to document and remember my life for the future. Don’t get me wrong, I would love other people to read and enjoy what I write! I would love it if I inspired or helped just one person and I will continue to promote my blog as much as possible but ultimately I need to write this blog for me. I need to write for my husband and more importantly I need to write for my children.
Because I was so anti-blogging within the month of July, I never purposefully took any pictures of my little ones or my family together, nor did I do a 10 month update for D and this makes me so sad! I feel angry with myself that I let myself get so caught up in the blogging game. Never again. I will draw a line under July and continue to write as I always have and cherish my tiny little space amongst this big wide web!